I knew what I was getting into when I took the job…But the past two days have been BORING!!! I know, the point of a monastery is the lack of stimuli, but having worked there for four months already, there are few mysteries remaining at the place. My problem is, I can’t use ALL of the time constructively…I meditate, and learn, but my limit is about 30-45 minutes before my thoughts just start bouncing around unless I hit on something extremely interesting in my introspection, which is rare.
For instance, today, I spent 30 minutes watching spiders have sex under the roof of my trailer…I’d never really given much thought as to how spiders reproduce; it’s quite fascinating. The male drums the web with his forelegs, getting the female to rush out. But before she can presumably eat him, he starts drumming her cephalothorax with his pedipalps (this is hot stuff, aint it?? Reader-discretion advised…) and she sort of curls into a ball. The male then wraps her in his legs; he’s got a smaller body but his legs are longer, and then uses his pedipalps to sort of…Elbow her in the "diaphragm" (the region where her cephalothorax meets her abdomen)…And this little claw on the end of his pedipalps opens and shuts as it pumps sperm (presumably) into her body. He spends about 2-5 minutes in that position, and then shifts to her other side and uses his other pedipalp to pump more sperm into the female. And then shifts back and forth.
Eventually I got bored with that too, and after spending a brief moment reflecting on the nature of impermanence I went into my trailer and let 40 more minutes fly by as I listened to some tunes and worked a little on a D&D game I want to run when I got back to the states. I can’t wait for the monks to get back so I can get back to work…Ah, feelings and impermanence…Can’t remember the Pali word for it, but it’s so true.